09 February 2011

Sappy crap for Darworld

I uneasily squeeze my way
through the halls and on my line of sight
are slapped grins, waves,
cordial greetings that make me crave
some comfort, a reminder,
a sense of assurance
that allows me to believe that
I'm still somewhat concurrent
with the rest of the world
that sits outside this dome --
a post-it note that says
"You're on your way home."

It's hard to trust that
despite all my worries,
I fit in the mold.
I know this from experience,
from when I was just a couple years old:
a square block
doesn't go in a round hole.

But hell, it hurts to know that
even though
my corners have softened
and I've trashed some fears,
all this was
was a few good years.
I've hated this place,
cursed its name,
wished for its downfall,
its final drop in fame.
Yet I've loved this place --
it's provided me the times
I'll never forget
'cause they remain entwined
with my fondest memories,
my strongest empathies.

So thinking back on it,
I might have been wrong to
accuse you of lying
when you said I belong.
I have never been so scared --
and I want it to be known --
to move on once more
and to leave my real home.

08 February 2011

Alive (song)

You may not have known it,
but I sure as hell showed it
with every laugh and every smile I ever gave to you.
And I'm sure that by now
even you would allow
yourself to see the fact in each and every single clue

Now I might not always know the right words to say
but it's been killing me since that first day.

I have never felt quite this alive
and I have never let myself take such a dive
into a thing quite as unknown as you
but I think I'm ready to jump into
this thing we call life as long as
you're ready to jump too.

You may not have known it
but I thought that I showed it
through all the nervousness I had whenever I saw you.
But just look at us now,
we're together somehow
and I can't believe that what I wished for has come true.

Now I might not always know the right words to say
but it's been killing me since that first day.

I have never felt quite this alive
and I have never let myself take such a dive
into a thing quite as unknown as you
but I think I'm ready to jump into
this thing we call life as long as
you're ready to jump too.

And if you're scared, it's okay.
Just take a deep breath and don't give it away
until we've jumped,
hit the ground,
stayed a while and looked around,
'cause what's the point in leaping if there's nothing to be found?

I have never felt quite this alive
and I have never let myself take such a dive
into a thing quite this unknown or new
but I know I'm ready to jump into
this thing we call life because
I looked and I found you.